Dear Baby

You would have been five today.



Dear Baby,

Today would have been your 5th birthday.  I wonder what you would look like today.  Would you be a red head little girl with your daddy's eyes and your mama's smile? Or could you be a handsome little boy with strawberry hair and brown eyes.  I like to think that you are a boy. I can see you now playing in the mud, looking for worms, and chasing the dogs around.  I bet you have a beautiful laugh and a precious, innocent heart. 

I'm not sure why God chose heaven for you, but I know HIS plans are much better than mine. I wish I could say it's been easy these five years, but the truth is, there are days I can't get beyond the loss of what could have been.  Then there are days I look at your sister, Maisie, and I know God brought beauty from the ashes of our broken hearts. 

I hope you know that your daddy and I loved you from the start and we would have given you the world.  I can't hold you now in my arms, but trust me sweet baby, I always hold you in my heart. 

Love always,

Mommy